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Looking at how to change your life in small ways.

Permission to eat badly – the dangers of eating well.

Your mind will screw you over. The best way it does this is though small, sneaky ways and seemingly logical justification. You are evil, my brain, just evil. You are determined to stop me on this weight loss journey.

So, yes – I caved on Wednesday and ate a package of chips. I didn’t let it get me down though. Move on – regroup and start again. Good, healthy mindset. I was still on track.

That meant that on Thursday I did an outstanding job and did not touch one bit of food that I did not deliberately mean to. Go me!

Yay for healthy eating.

… you would think,

Friday arrived and I thought I was back on track. But that track was false and covered in enough potholes that all I needed was one step deep enough in one to throw me on the ground of junkfood.

That pothole’s name was Whole Staff Morning Tea.

I thought I had control. I didn’t go overboard… but it was enough that I didn’t want to eat for the rest of the day. But that was ok, since I had done so well yesterday. That night I had soup… and bread. Tasty, tasty carbs. But that was ok too since it had been hours since I ate at work. Surely it was ok.

Next pothole: Saturday. I went Geocaching and carefully packed a nice picnic to take with me. Very good.  I ate well with a smidge of sugar as a treat. I was doing the right thing.

I had also bought a package of Snickers Pods. Now, there was a serious reason for this. Once a month a group of friends and I get together for games night. We play all kinds of games and generally have a fantastic laugh – and of course you have to bring something to share! But two hours before Games Night begins they were calling to me. I had eaten so well on Thursday and then so well that day, surely a couple wouldn’t hurt.

A couple of handfuls later I was regretting my choice.

Once again determined to do well for myself, I threw the rest in a ziplock bag and took them to Games night with all the other junk food. All the other junk food that I then ate. I ate because it was there, and sure when you have good company you should be able to eat the food as well.

There was a point that night I knew I had gone too far. With so much chocolate in my system I felt physically ill and curled up on the coach and put my head on the soft and squishy arm chair.

Pothole number 3: The rise and fall of logic AKA Sunday. Sunday I was involved in a training exercise, a road crash rescue simulation in which I was playing casualty. Getting up an hour before I was supposed to be at the venue I convinced myself that MacDonald’s breakfast was an obvious choice to grab a quick, warm meal. An Aussie breakfast roll, a hash brown, an orange juice and skinny cap later I was set. Lunch was then a BBQ in which I couldn’t go past the sausages in bread with sauce. Having firmly determined that I had shot everything to hell I then ate a package of chips and fruit tingles that afternoon.

All from that cave in on Wednesday. Like a snowflake on the mountain, it had all turned into a snowball of doom.

DAMN IT!

Mondays are a great day for starting healthy eating aren’t they?

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Cravings

How do you get past cravings.

For three days I have eaten well. I have kept to the 2.5hour guidelines. I have not had junk food and I have seen some weight come off. These should all be motivators, right?

All I can think of is eating some chips. Chips are my biggest weakness and I’m trying to justify why I can have them:

  • I’ve been good for three days – I should be able to have a break/reward.
  • If I wait until my next eating time then I should be able to say that I’m allowed to eat them.

I also know why I should not eat them:

  • eating sugar makes you want more sugar.
  • carbs are evil
  • eating bad food is not a reward for eating well, especially when you’re trying to loose the weight.

I am trying to focus on work, but it’s really not helping.

I’ve tried a hot chocolate – low sugar! – to trick my body into thinking I’ve had something. Nope, still want chips.

I’ve tried downing half a bottle of water to stem the cravings. But you know that hole in your stomach – the one that no matter how full from dinner you are you still have room for dessert? Yep, can’t fill that one up.

I’ve tried going outside and getting some fresh air.

 

You know what? I’m really going to get out and do some Geocaching! There is 1.5 hours until I can eat again and at the very least I can wait that out.

Signing off craving chips but trying to overcome 1st world problems.

Productive procrastination – making it look you’re working when your not.

There is marking to be done in front of me, a huge list of things to be done and there are students sitting in front of me.

Oooo, a teacher not working!

I’m known for being a hard-working, effective, efficient person at work. But I also know what I’m like personally. One of the greatest procratinators on the planet. I’m sure there is a certificate somewhere.

Greatest Procrastinator of the…. ummm…. I’ll come back to this.

When I was little, PROCRASTINATION was the first big word I every learnt and over the years I have mastered the art of procrastination to become productive while I do it.

Let’s say, for example, you have an assignment to mark. But there are other things to be done! Read though emails and delete the useless ones, clean up my desk space and organise papers, make those phone calls to parents, write up that test that is a week away, look for little small tasks that I can knock over in a minute.

See? Lots to do.

And sure, it all needs to get done….

The other benefit is that, when it comes down to crunch time, and there is no more time at the final hour, you work more efficiently! Nothing like pressure to get things done.

I know exactly where I have learnt this too. Mum used to give my brothers and I chores to do around the house. Funnily enough, we were never bored and always managed to fill in our time. If there was a moment when it looked like we were bored mum would say “have you done X yet”. It’s wonderful what you can fill your time with when you need to!

That’s how I managed to keep to my 2.5 hours of non-eating yesterday (see the post) by productively procrastinating. There was work to do, and yet I managed to put the clothes away, clean the house, do the shopping, have a relaxing bath, catch up on Netflix and then do Geocaching (oh, there will have to be a post about Geocaching some day!)

So, yes. I have managed to keep a whole two days to my diet. Yay me!

Oh, and that class that is looking at me while I type importantly on my laptop? Not mine. This is an extra that I’m taking for another teacher while they are away sick. 🙂

Signing off in knowledge that things DO get done eventually.

How to start a diet – not exactly inspiring.

I thought about doing an introduction to myself, but I feel like the same tired lines are going to come out:

Hi! Welcome to my site! I am a single female who lives with her cat. I teach secondary school and I really need to get my head together and loose some weight…

But I feel like I would be wasting time backtracking over ground that I already know. You know the story – grown woman has issues and encounters problems and hurdles in life and now wants to try and overcome them with the power of social media 🙂

Let’s talk about today instead. Right this moment.

Try to forget about what has come before, because there’s nothing that we can do to change it.

…Don’t give me that “but we can learn from the past!” I know that, you know that. But come on, people! If I try to cover every possible pathway or train of thought we’d be here all day. Let’s try to stick to some common sense.

I am overweight. Today the scales showed 95.6kg. I haven’t been this heavy for years! Somehow I managed to loose a stack of weight (25kg) about five years ago and keep it off for some time, but for whatever reason I have not been able to get that mindset back.

My brother has done an amazing job of loosing 10kg himself since the start of the year. Bastard. He’s currently full of good, useful advice at the moment. Don’t eat carbs, have healthy meals in the freezer, eat small means, drink lots of water, keep busy.

Like I don’t know this.

HOW TO START A DIET

Step 1: Begin

Morning are always easy to start diets – have you noticed that? A good healthy breakfast and a bottle of water beside me. No craving so far. What was breakfast I hear you ask – cauliflower tots! The most amazing and delicious snack to have. Here is a recipe. I had four of them. Yum, yum. Still hungry? Get that bottle of water next to you and start drinking it. Gulp down half the bottle if you need to. That whole ‘if you have a water bottle next to you you’ll drink more water’ thing? That really works.

You hate water? Do it with a bit of cordial. Better less sugar than that stuff you’ve been drinking so far.

Step 2: Figure out when you are eating next.

That’s the problem when you’re fat and addicted to sugar. It’s always about your next meal. What can you have. What do you feel guilty about eating. What can you convince yourself to have? Food, food, food.

I love food.

It’s Sunday, and because it’s Sunday I slept in. Breakfast was a lazy 10am. I’ve found in the past that about 2.5 hours is a good time to put between meals. It’s not so long away that you’re going to die, and it’s soon enough that you won’t be starving and over-eat.

12:30pm. That’s when I can eat again.

Step 3: Keep busy. 

You know that list of things that need to be done. Do them. Keep doing them until it’s eating time again.

Step 4: Rinse and repeat.

Start by eating a healthy meal. Drink the water. Decide when you are next going to eat and keep busy.

 

Let’s see how long I last before I’m craving.

 

Signing off with good intentions but probably doomed to fail.

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